I took my daughter to gymnastics’s today just like every other Saturday, and while I was waiting for her, I realized that I was feeling completely overwhelmed and stressed out! I know that I had alot to do today, things to get done to prepare for her sleepover tonight to celebrate her birthday; errands to run, but nothing that would have me with this heavy heart and feeling of doom. To describe what it physically felt like, would be to describe anxiety, but it was more than that, it was Spiritual. I recently started a job working at home, while training this week, I realized that I was burning up a whole lot of busy work, which allowed me little time for anything else. I hadn’t even read my Bible in the last few days. How in a matter of four or five days could I experience such a peace, and then go to what I would describe as stress, and darkness? I knew what it was, it was satan. I realized that he had me busy, and I took my eye’s off the Lord. The busyness of everything, had gotten to the point where I hadn’t even prayed much, come to think of it. It had been a few days since Jesus and I had our time. It’s amazing, it does not take very long, a matter of hours or even days to get yourself back in a dark place. When Peter took his eyes off Jesus, while he was walking on water, he immediately sank!
On the way home from gymnastics, I prayed. I prayed and asked for forgiveness, and expressed my true desire to love, honor and walk with Him. After I prayed, I felt that peace again, the calmness, that worry, the anxiety, all immediately disappeared! I finished the rest of my day with my daughter, in a calm and joyous way, we had a good time together.
Later on that afternoon, as I was sitting down to peruse through my books that I just received to review and blog, I noticed a passage that the book was referring too. I wrote it down and looked it up, Hebrews 12:22-13:2. What I usually do when I read Scripture, is start at the beginning of that chapter that I am reviewing so I can get a real feel of what I am reading. I started at Hebrews 12:1 and read all the way down to verse twenty two.
New International Version (NIV)
God Disciplines His Children
4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
6 because the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.”